When I first started writing this blog, I was very clear in my objective. I was writing for me. I was going to use this blog as a diary of sorts, a place that was my own where I could write down all of my thoughts and feelings and it would be my outlet.
Somewhere along the way I seem to have forgotten that. I think it happened because I started liking other blogs/pages and seeing how many followers or likes they had, and then doing my old habit of comparing. Why haven’t I got that many likes? Why is she/he more popular than me? What am I doing wrong? Am I not funny or ‘out there” enough?
I didn’t start writing for likes or approval, but that seemed to have become my ultimate goal.
But that’s the thing with blogging. You are putting yourself out into the world, albeit the virtual world, for people to see, or read. You are showing your wears to others, others who have much more experience or much better material. And for someone with anxiety and depression, that is a ginormous step forward. It puts Neil Armstrong to shame…!
I am me. I will write about the things that are important to me, or that I would like to express. And if people like me, or my page, for that reason, then great! If not, well it’s all virtual, so I will never know!
Blogging is not a popularity contest. It is realism. People baring their souls to others, or to themselves, about things that are important to them.
That’s what makes blogging so relevant today, it is like the literary version of reality TV. And that’s what draws people back for more.
So I will continue to write for me. I am loving this experience and I hope that that continues for a long time!
And, thanks for reading guys, your support is undeniably awesome
Leah xx
